\u0130nsan\u0131n d\u0131\u015far\u0131da sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 en b\u00fcy\u00fck sava\u015f, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman i\u00e7inde ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan\u0131 hakikatten uzakla\u015ft\u0131ran \u015fey her zaman g\u00f6r\u00fcnen bir d\u00fc\u015fman de\u011fildir. Bazen en b\u00fcy\u00fck perde, insan\u0131n kendi nefsidir. Nefs ger\u00e7e\u011fin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rter. \u00dcstelik bunu kaba bir \u015fekilde de\u011fil, ince ince yapar. En yak\u0131n dostu \u015feytand\u0131r; en b\u00fcy\u00fck silahlar\u0131ndan biri ise yaland\u0131r. Fakat bu yalan, sadece dile d\u00f6k\u00fclen bir s\u00f6z de\u011fildir. Bazen bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce olur, bazen bir mazeret, bazen de \u201cbir kereden bir \u015fey olmaz\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldayan i\u00e7 ses\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nefis \u00e7ok iyi kurgu yapar. \u00d6yle bir kurgu kurar ki akl\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rter, mant\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 susturur, do\u011fruyu g\u00f6lgeler. Sana olmamas\u0131 gerekeni makul g\u00f6sterir, yapmaman gerekeni gerekliymi\u015f gibi sunar. \u00dcstelik bunu \u00f6yle ustaca yapar ki, bazen sana s\u00f6ylenen yalana ba\u015fkas\u0131 de\u011fil, bizzat sen kendin inan\u0131rs\u0131n. \u0130\u015fte en tehlikeli yer de buras\u0131d\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelen vesveseye kar\u015f\u0131 bazen tedbir al\u0131r ama kendi i\u00e7inde \u00fcretilen bahaneye \u00e7o\u011fu zaman savunmas\u0131z yakalan\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nand\u0131\u011f\u0131n anda art\u0131k sonras\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez olur. O anda sadece \u201c\u015fimdi\u201d vard\u0131r. Muhakeme geri \u00e7ekilir, vicdan susturulur, hesap duygusu ertelenir. \u201cSonra d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcm\u201d denir ama nefis zaten en \u00e7ok o \u201csonra\u201dy\u0131 yok eder. O an\u0131n kazanc\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcl\u00fcr, sonras\u0131n\u0131n kayb\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fcr. \u0130nsan, kendi hevesinin merkezine yerle\u015fir; kendinden ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmez h\u00e2le gelir. Ne Rabbini hat\u0131rlar, ne emaneti, ne de kalbinin \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00e7\u00f6ken a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n nereden geldi\u011fini\u2026 O saatten sonra ger\u00e7ek senaryo ile de\u011fil, nefsin yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 sahte hik\u00e2yeyle hareket edilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur\u2019an\u2019\u0131n i\u015faret etti\u011fi o derin hakikat burada kendini g\u00f6sterir: Nefis, Rabbimin merhamet etti\u011fi hari\u00e7, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc emreder. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc nefis sadece yanl\u0131\u015f yapt\u0131rmaz; yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131 do\u011fru gibi g\u00f6sterir. G\u00fcnah\u0131 s\u00fcsler, hatay\u0131 gerek\u00e7elendirir, zay\u0131fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck diye pazarlar. \u015eeytan ise tam burada devreye girer. O, insana zorla yapt\u0131rmaz; sadece kap\u0131y\u0131 s\u00fcsler. \u0130\u00e7eri girmeyi ise nefis ister. Bu y\u00fczden insan\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck imtihan\u0131 bazen \u015feytanla de\u011fil, \u015feytana i\u00e7eriden kap\u0131 a\u00e7an nefsiyle olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne ac\u0131d\u0131r ki g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda kurulan b\u00fct\u00fcn bahaneler da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r. O an ge\u00e7er, heves diner, perde kalkar. Geriye ne nefsin vaat etti\u011fi b\u00fcy\u00fck kazan\u00e7lar kal\u0131r ne de kurdu\u011fu parlak c\u00fcmleler\u2026 Elde kalan \u00e7o\u011fu zaman tek bir c\u00fcmledir: \u201c\u015eeytana uydum.\u201d Oysa insan bilir ki \u015feytana uymadan \u00f6nce, nefsinin kurdu\u011fu yalana raz\u0131 olmu\u015ftur. As\u0131l yenilgi de burada ya\u015fan\u0131r. \u0130nsan bazen d\u00fc\u015ferek de\u011fil, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc hakl\u0131 g\u00f6rerek kaybeder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu y\u00fczden insan\u0131n kendine kar\u015f\u0131 d\u00fcr\u00fcst olmas\u0131, d\u00fcnyadaki en zor ama en gerekli y\u00fczle\u015fmedir. Her istek ihtiya\u00e7 de\u011fildir. Her mazeret masum de\u011fildir. Her i\u00e7 ses hakikati s\u00f6ylemez. Bazen insan\u0131n yapmas\u0131 gereken ilk \u015fey, nefsinin konu\u015ftu\u011fu yerde bir ad\u0131m geri \u00e7ekilip \u015fu soruyu sormakt\u0131r: \u201cBu ger\u00e7ekten do\u011fru mu, yoksa ho\u015fuma gitti\u011fi i\u00e7in mi do\u011fru san\u0131yorum?\u201d \u0130\u015fte kurtulu\u015f, bu soruyu samimiyetle sorabilen kalpte ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nsan, \u015feytan\u0131n f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00f6nce nefsinin alk\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 susturabildi\u011fi g\u00fcn hakikatin sesini duymaya ba\u015flar.
Rafet \u00c7a\u011flar<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n